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| Clumsy paper killing collage from my journal. |
HEY GUYS EMILY HERE RETURNING FROM THE GREAT ABYSS. Sorry I haven't posted anything mildly interesting or cool lately, I suck and I'm well aware of it.
I'm also aware of the fact that I have consciously made a typo in the title of this post, which dubs "September" as "Sucktember". God I'm so clever, I should get paid more for this (this is a joke...I don't get paid at all HAHA). This month has been one heck of a ride!!! I didn't even know what was happening 3/4 of the time!! School!!!! Stress!!!!!! More school!!!!!! A lot more stress!!!!! This has been my exciting life for the past 30 days. I also managed to attend a Lorde concert in the middle of it, which made it about 400 times more bearable, and I ate a lot of bagels in the process which sort of helped as well.
Apparently since I am in my last year of high school I have to "get serious" and "be committed" to my studies. Quite frankly I'd rather be reading books or making collages, but I guess you have to do what you have to do.
I have had almost zero time to spend doing things I actually enjoy and that aren't going to be graded. I know I shouldn't be whining or whatever BUT I FEEL LIKE A ROBOT. Get on the bus, dread school for an hour, get off the bus, go learn some stuff, get back on the bus, pass out from mental exhaustion, walk to work, think about doing something else for 5 hours, get home, do more mind numbing brain work, go to sleep, die. You too can have this thrilling life for three easy payments of $19.99!!!!!!!!
Alright I'm done. In all realness I'm extremely grateful to have the privilege to receive a great education, but sometimes I want to do other stuff too, like catch up on what my pal Vogue is up to, or lay in my bed and contemplate existential ideas of the meaning of life. Whatever at least I'm still cute.
I thought, since I truly don't have a ton of events to report on in my own little narcissistic world, that I would just share some cool stuff I've been digging lately, and some inspirational stuff I've been thriving off of. So behold a list of stuff I like!! Hoorah!!!! (If you don't care I'm honestly extremely sorry I don't have the stamina to create actual meaningful content at the moment, I still love you though).
1. Lorde
I make sure I set aside at least five minutes everyday to stop and reflect on all that the Lorde is doing in my life. Ok I know that was horrible and slightly sacrilegious, but for real I have been low key obsessed with Ella for over a year now. I saw her for the second time in under a year on September 12th and it was just surreal. I may have cried a lot then tried to wish my way to becoming her best friend (it hasn't worked yet btw). The queen also released a new song as the first track off of the Mockingjay Part 1 soundtrack called "Yellow Flicker Beat". Dude, seriously if you haven't heard it please go listen to it
here.
She also appeared on the cover of Elle magazine for the October issue and her interview is amazing!!!! I literally read it, then re-read it, then re-read it again. What's obsession again?
2. Plasma Dolphin
I am officially part of the Plasma Dolphin team!!! PD is an extremely cool online zine made by amazingly talented and creative people which you need to check out. Seriously, it's awesome, go check out the fourth issue
NOW (please).
3. Film Pictures and Disposable Cameras
Seriously large amount of fun in a seriously small amount of camera. I've been having the time of my life with these things, and I've been shamefully carrying my dorky water proof one everywhere. I've yet to get it developed, but when I do I will make sure you guys get a front row view of their cheesy coolness.
4. Words of Wisdom from Van Gogh
"Normality is a paved road: It's comfortable to walk on, but no flowers grow on it."
This quote from Van Gogh has been getting me through my tough days because sometimes I just need to know that it's ok to be weird. I have a tendency to classify myself as an outlier to civilization, but while reflecting on his words it's like suddenly remembering "Hey!! It's ok Em!!!! Flowers grow from the strangest parts of your mind because you're original!!!!" Reassurance that I'm not a complete freak is sometimes all I need.
Ok well that's all for now. Lots and lots of love and stuff,
-Emily
