October Inspo

Here are some things that are reverberating in the back of my mind this month. This fall for me is all about contrasting pastel colours with black and grey. Also Halloween is Beetlejuice season, and Lydia Deetz is my main style icon at the moment. 

Looking at this collection of photos is strange for me because they're pretty unrelated and odd in some ways. But yet, "I, myself, are strange and unusual" so I guess they fit perfectly.

-Emily 

Life In the Month of Sucktember

Clumsy paper killing collage from my journal.

HEY GUYS EMILY HERE RETURNING FROM THE GREAT ABYSS. Sorry I haven't posted anything mildly interesting or cool lately, I suck and I'm well aware of it.
I'm also aware of the fact that I have consciously made a typo in the title of this post, which dubs "September" as "Sucktember". God I'm so clever, I should get paid more for this (this is a joke...I don't get paid at all HAHA). This month has been one heck of a ride!!! I didn't even know what was happening 3/4 of the time!! School!!!! Stress!!!!!! More school!!!!!! A lot more stress!!!!! This has been my exciting life for the past 30 days. I also managed to attend a Lorde concert in the middle of it, which made it about 400 times more bearable, and I ate a lot of bagels in the process which sort of helped as well.
Apparently since I am in my last year of high school I have to "get serious" and "be committed" to my studies. Quite frankly I'd rather be reading books or making collages, but I guess you have to do what you have to do.
I have had almost zero time to spend doing things I actually enjoy and that aren't going to be graded. I know I shouldn't be whining or whatever BUT I FEEL LIKE A ROBOT. Get on the bus, dread school for an hour, get off the bus, go learn some stuff, get back on the bus, pass out from mental exhaustion, walk to work, think about doing something else for 5 hours, get home, do more mind numbing brain work, go to sleep, die. You too can have this thrilling life for three easy payments of $19.99!!!!!!!!

Alright I'm done. In all realness I'm extremely grateful to have the privilege to receive a great education, but sometimes I want to do other stuff too, like catch up on what my pal Vogue is up to, or lay in my bed and contemplate existential ideas of the meaning of life. Whatever at least I'm still cute.
I thought, since I truly don't have a ton of events to report on in my own little narcissistic world, that I would just share some cool stuff I've been digging lately, and some inspirational stuff I've been thriving off of. So behold a list of stuff I like!! Hoorah!!!! (If you don't care I'm honestly extremely sorry I don't have the stamina to create actual meaningful content at the moment, I still love you though).

1. Lorde

I make sure I set aside at least five minutes everyday to stop and reflect on all that the Lorde is doing in my life. Ok I know that was horrible and slightly sacrilegious, but for real I have been low key obsessed with Ella for over a year now. I saw her for the second time in under a year on September 12th and it was just surreal. I may have cried a lot then tried to wish my way to becoming her best friend (it hasn't worked yet btw). The queen also released a new song as the first track off of the Mockingjay Part 1 soundtrack called "Yellow Flicker Beat". Dude, seriously if you haven't heard it please go listen to it here.
She also appeared on the cover of Elle magazine for the October issue and her interview is amazing!!!! I literally read it, then re-read it, then re-read it again. What's obsession again?

2. Plasma Dolphin

I am officially part of the Plasma Dolphin team!!! PD is an extremely cool online zine made by amazingly talented and creative people which you need to check out. Seriously, it's awesome, go check out the fourth issue NOW (please).

3. Film Pictures and Disposable Cameras

Seriously large amount of fun in a seriously small amount of camera. I've been having the time of my life with these things, and I've been shamefully carrying my dorky water proof one everywhere. I've yet to get it developed, but when I do I will make sure you guys get a front row view of their cheesy coolness.

4. Words of Wisdom from Van Gogh

"Normality is a paved road: It's comfortable to walk on, but no flowers grow on it."

This quote from Van Gogh has been getting me through my tough days because sometimes I just need to know that it's ok to be weird. I have a tendency to classify myself as an outlier to civilization, but while reflecting on his words it's like suddenly remembering "Hey!! It's ok Em!!!! Flowers grow from the strangest parts of your mind because you're original!!!!" Reassurance that I'm not a complete freak is sometimes all I need.

Ok well that's all for now. Lots and lots of love and stuff,

-Emily

Looks I Would Steal from NYFW Spring 2015

Delpozo

Reed Krakoff

Green Days: A Photo Diary

As the end of summer arrives once again I would like to acknowledge all the lush greenery that comes with summer time, and the running theme it has had on my life for the past month. RIP summer, I like fall better than you, but you'll sort of be missed anyway. 

Let's Talk About Blogging

This is one of the countless cases where you should not in fact listen to Dwight Schrute.

Blog /blahg/ verb

1. Add new material to or regularly update a blog.

"I can't stop blogging, I haven't slept for 42 hours."
2. Write about (an event, situation, topic, etc.) in a blog.
"She blogged about our twitter argument last night, it was so tacky." 

Blogging has been a large and influential part of my internet life (I'm almost ashamed to say I have one). I have been reading blogs, stalking blogs, posting on blogs, and following blogs for years now. I've been apart of many different blogging platforms without successfully becoming "popular" or "internet famous" on any of them. 

When I was around 11 or 12 I resided on Piczo.com, the free internet web hosting platform, which now no longer exists (RIP). I then made my way over to Webs.com which was WAY more sophisticated and WAY more cool for another solid chunk of time, until I discovered the world wide web sensation that is Tumblr. 

There I created a Taylor Swift fan blog (which, don't worry, will definitely be discussed at a later date) and joined an online community of fangirls. I assure you it was as productive and awesome as it sounds. 

After a good two years devoted to reblogging and commentating on the life of Tswizzle I decided it was time to move on to bigger and better things. I then created another Tumblr account where I reblog ~sophisticated~ and artistic images of cool stuff that inspires me. 

My internet popularity reached it's peak when I reached almost 6,000 followers obsessing over Taylor. My current Tumblr has solid amount of 154 whole followers. Wowza. 

The point is not how popular I have been in my blogging endeavours, it's how much I've enjoyed it. I love writing! I love reading! I love aesthetically pleasing things! I love being updated on culture and current events! Therefore I've relished every moment of my existence behind the screen. Blogging is fun, and sometimes I think that we can forget that.

I want to blog about things I'm passionate about, not things I feel obligated to because of constant demands from followers. More importantly I want to write about things I'm passionate about. 

I left the Taylor blogging world because I wasn't enjoying it anymore because I had drifted into the realm of other interests. I began to spend a lot of time reading and appreciating different types of literature, art, and music. I wanted to discuss important and philosophical issues. I wanted to talk about religion, death, sexism, racism, and the human condition, all of which I did not get to do while dissecting the relationship of "Jaylor" (the couple name for Joe Jonas and Taylor Swift, during their brief 2008 fling).

Although I love visual arts such as photography, painting, and drawing the true love of my life has always been for words. Even in my paintings they are the focus, front and centre (See example below). 

The invasion of words in EVERYTHING I do. And the presence of my favourite lads the Arctic Monkeys.

No matter what medium I choose I'm always captivated by metaphorically painting pictures and images with words. It really is so cool.

Marie Howe, the kick ass poet, said in a recent episode of the podcast On Being "Language is all we have left for action." (I'm unable to locate the exact quote so that is a paraphrased version). The more I thought about it the more those words rang true. We are not beings of bodily action like we used to be. We rarely take to physical fights in our daily disputes, and needing to hunt and travel far distances by foot has not been an issue for nearly hundreds of years. I myself spend almost 11 hours a day just simply sitting. 

When I become enraged by something I write, when I feel intense sadness I write, when I'm joyful and over the moon I often will sing and scream lyrics, and whenever I engage in a disagreement I make sure my tongue and mind are sharper than my knife. 

I don't exactly know what my "goal" is. It's not to become a renowned style blogger with outfits that are too perfectly styled in endless self portraits. It is not to attempt to make my ordinary and mundane everyday life into a narcissistic manifesto that would idolize and uphold me as cooler-than-average being. I think my vision is more to create a space that's real.

Real in the sense that mistakes and sloppiness are ok, that I can admit that there are somethings I'm not as knowledgeable about as I'd like to be, and that I'm still working on myself continuously. It's to post my unprofessional artwork, prose, and photography in a safe place where nothing I am or that I do is persecuted as being wrong. It is to talk to no one and everyone at the same time, and to interest people who may just be similar to me. I don't want to talk at you about things, I want to spew my thoughts to you like they pour out of my head. I feel the internet is the best way to do that. 

Online presence is a tricky thing, and in a lot of ways I believed it has evolved into a form of self marketing instead of a method of communication. It can be a valuable resource to promote your work and art, but promoting your very own flawless image is something I am not interested in. I am interested in bringing back the authenticity to my life online, since it is clear that the internet is here to stay. I want to share my passions in a way that is personal and my own. Most importantly I want to share them with you. This is what blogging means to me.

(Too cheesy?)

-Emily